What have I been up to?  Well, I saw my nutritionist on the 7th, got restricted to no exercise, had to start drinking 8oz of soymilk at breakfast, lunch and dinner, and was told to not weigh myself.  I’m happy to say that I accomplished all of my goals for those two weeks until I had my next appointment.  The no exercise goal was my biggest challenge – the first week was horrible, I was a cranky mess but by the second week I was feeling much more at ease about it all.  Baby steps!

I went back to see her yesterday and she was very happy that I accomplished everything she set me out to do.  My goals for these next two weeks are:

1.  Continue the soymilk at meals. (do not replace soymilk for other foods)   *I did end up replacing some of my calories with the soymilk; that’s why she gave me this goal. 

2.  Add Boost with dinner if you feel you haven’t eaten enough.  *She basically told me that this goal was up to me to decide.  I’m happy about this – it shows she trusts me. 

3.  Do not write down calories in food.  *I write down my calories in my food journal for her.

4.  Talk with a friend to help support you during lunch. 

5.  Try a bagel *This is my fear food challenge; she wants me to try one before I see her next.

6.  Do not weigh yourself!  *She will be weighing me at each appointment.

I have been eating a little bit more during these two weeks but my weight did not budge.  When she told me that my weight was the same, I was shocked!  I was expecting an increase, even a tiny one.  But no.  Nothing at all! 

It feels good to be back that’s for sure!  I will be back later on today girlies.  I hope you have a wonderful Thursday!  It’s almost FRIDAY!

I’ve hit an all-time low weight today and I’m not feeling good emotionally.  Today is the day I see my nutritionist, so I’m hoping that it goes well.  I’m not holding back anymore; I’m tired of feeling this way and letting ED take control.  No more. 

I will be back! 

Breakfast this morning was something I haven’t had in a couple months: greek yogurt!  In my bowl I had:

• 1/2 cup Kashi GoLean
• 3/4 cup Trader Joes 0% Greek Yogurt
• 1 frozen naner

This was very yummy, since I added some cinnamon and a splenda (bad!!) on top.  All in all, this was a great start to my morning.  I’m hoping that it keeps me fueled well for my day at work today! 

After I get off work I plan to hit the gym for a bit, then come home, clean up and then have some lunch! 

I have a hair appointment tomorrow which I am sooo excited for, since I haven’t had my hair cut in anout 3 1/2-4 months and I also need some highlights.    I’ll try and remember to post a picture tomorrow when it’s all purty. 

Again, sorry for not posting a lot recently, I had gotten sick and just didn’t feel well nor did I eat anything exciting.  See ya later girlies.

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend! 

Anyways, I hope your Friday has gone off to a good start!  I can’t believe how fast this week has gone by.  Make the most of the rest of your time off, pretty soon it’ll be back to work and school for everyone.  I know I didn’t get a break at all but I’m kinda glad because I don’t have to kick myself in the pants to want to go back to work.   

This morning started off the same as always, I had my english muffin with cream cheese and Barney Butter, along with a banana and my cup of crack.  No picture, but it looked just like yesterdays. 

I went to the gym around 11 this morning and it wasn’t as crazy busy as I thought it would be.  You can sure tell who the “resolution go’ers” are though.  I did my bike and elliptical workout, along with a 5 minute walk on the treadmill.  After that, I headed to Trader Joes to get some bananas, bread, mushrooms, baby greens and some fat free balsamic vinaigrette.  I was disappointed that they didn’t have a light version; I hate getting fat free dressing because I know I could use some of the good fats in the more caloric versions.  Oh well, when I run out of this (it’s very good by the way!) I’ll go to Lassen’s or my store to get a different brand.  I’ve been dying to try Annie’s or Newman’s Own dressings.  Anyone have any favorites?

My lunch today was a tiny bit different than what I’m used to, but still sorta the same.  I had my chicken with swiss sandwich, but instead of putting my greens on the sandwich, I just had a side salad with my added mushrooms, balsamic vinaigrette and a tiny bit of mustard.  Loved it.  I think I might start doing this from now on – I haven’t had the pleasure of making my own salads in a long time and it was very satisfying! 

Sorry for the bad sandwich picture!  That’s the best I could get. 

Speaking of cameras, I still haven’t gotten my new one, but I am checking every single day to see if it’s close to being here.  Sometimes I hate that UPS tracking service – it gets addicting if your anticipating a package! 

Right now I’m drinking the evil Diet Dr. Pepper.  I won’t lie to you guys: I’ve been having one of these a day for about 4-5 days now.  Not good…I need to get off of these but they are so damn good.  Give me some inspiration girls!   

Well, that’s it for now, but I just wanted to thank each and every one of you awesome girlies for commenting and taking the time to read my posts!  You have no idea how much they mean to me – each and every one I take to heart.  I’ve been slacking on the blog reading and commenting, so please forgive me. 

Tootles!

Last night I also got the worst feeling of nausea and my stomach was acting up for a couple hours.  I felt horrible but I feel a lot better this morning, so I’m not sure what the cause of it was? 

I decided to take it somewhat easy on my stomach this morning and have a nice and simple breakfast.  I had an english muffin with one tablespoon of light cream cheese, one tablespoon Barney Butter and a frozen naner.  It hit the spot and I felt much better after eating. 

I’m also enjoying a nice hot cup of coffee right now.  It’s been a while since I’ve had my crack in  a cup! 

I don’t have any plans for today so I’m just planning on reading and watching t.v.  I do need some bananas however, so I might head to the store later on. 

Have any of you heard the song Poker Face by Lady Gaga?  I LOVE THIS SONG!  It’s on my myspace page and I have been constantly playing it over and over on my MP3.  Oh!  Do any of you ladies have a myspace?  If so, I’d love to be friends with you, if you don’t mind. 

One thing I haven’t written about here yet are my New Year’s resolutions; I sometimes hate making them because I don’t want to feel obligated to furfill each and every one.  That just makes me one stressed out girl.  And we don’t want that happening!  I will say that I hope to:

Gain my health back, as well as maintain it.  I’ve treated my body so horrible in the past year, but my mission for this year is to treat myself with respect.  No more. 

I know each and every one of you has the strength to make this year your best yet!  Don’t let anything stop you or get in your way of accomplishing your dreams.  You girls deserve it.

Sorry I didn’t post this morning – it was way too early for me to be on the computer, let alone write a post.  I just got home from work and I am pooped.  I’m glad it went by fast though; I had my MP3 player keep me company before we opened this morning.

For dinner last night I ended up having an english muffin with cream cheese and peanut butter.  No picture, sorry!  I also had a couple dark chocolate covered raisins after.  Yum yum.

And breakfast this morning was that wonderful croissant!  Oh my God.  That thing was so freaken good; it just melted in my mouth, and that chocolate!!  Words can’t descibe how good it was.  So nice and yummy and buttery.  GAH I want to experience it all over again.   

Now is the time I wish I had my new camera! This picture doesn’t do it justice at all. Trust me.

I am gonna end this now because this gal needs a nap.  I will try to post later on but who knows how long I’ll sleep for!  Oh but I have a quick question for you guys: What are your plans for tonight and tomorrow?  Anything fun?

Let’s backtrack to last night – for dinner I had a cup of Trader Joes Tomato Soup and an english muffin with cream cheese.  I must tell you guys that this is the BEST tomato soup I’ve come across.  I am always buying more to stock up in case they ever run out.    You never know with Trader Joes – some products just disappear over there! 

When we got to Tulare, we stopped at the usual IHOP that we always go to.  I ended up getting the Garden Scramble off the IHOP For Me section.  I love this – I almost always get this every single time I go there.  I can never finish the whole thing though; I cleaned my plate except for one pancake. 

After breakkie, we went to the BEST Target ever: this Target has a lot more variety than the one at home.  I ended up getting some chocolate croissants and two Erin Baker Breakfast cookies!  I also bought a Diet Dr. Pepper (again!) for the trip home. 

I am so having one of these croissants for breakfast tomorrow, since I’ll be up at 3 a.m.  I was so excited to find the Erin Baker cookies since they are no where to be found where I live.  I almost ordered them online, and I’m glad I didn’t because they were only $.99 a piece!  I probably should’ve gotten more, but I’ll stock up next time we drive to Tulare. 

When we got back, I went to get my oil changed in my car, then headed to the gym.  I warmed up on the bike for almost 10 minutes, then did 20 minutes on the elliptical, THEN cooled down with 10 minutes of walking on the treadmill.  Overall a good workout, but I felt a little weak.  Another reason I need to remind myself to eat more.  Gah! 

I still haven’t had lunch yet but I will pretty soon since my blood sugar is starting to drop.  I will (maybe) see you guys later on today!  Lata.

Today was a very chill day – besides work.  I went to the gym and did my warm-up on the bike, then 25 minutes on the elliptical.  I think I need to bring a magazine or something with me, as today I got very bored; I almost got off and went home.  : P 

My snack at work was my always faithful Peanut Butter Balance bar.  From there, I went to the gym, came home, showered, then ate my lunchie.  I think you guys know it by now. 

This orange was so good and juicy!  I just love when it drips down my chin and gets everything sticky.  (Cleaning it up isn’t fun of course, but you know what I mean.)  This lunch had a lot of fiber cause right now my stomach is sure feelin’ it!  Ah well, I’ll just drink some water and wait it out. 

I have tomorrow off, woohoo!  The calm before the storm…if any of you work in a grocery store, you know what I mean by that.  New Year’s Eve I go in at 4 a.m.  Yes, that freaken early.  I could shoot my boss right now for scheduling me that early, but what can I do?  I’ll tell ya right now, I am not going to be a happy camper that day unless I get some Diet. Dr. Pepper and some coffee for caffeine in me!   

I’ll be back later for dinner.  Right now I’m just going to sit down and watch t.v. as always.  I hope something good is on!

I woke up to get ready for work and decided on my usual bowl of cereal for breakkie this morning.  I hope I’m not boring you guys with my repeated breakfasts!    I can’t help it, it’s too good! 

• 1 cup Kashi GoLean
• 1 cup Vanilla Soymilk
• 1 frozen nana

Now I have a question for those recovering/have recovered: Have you ever gotten your hunger signals back?  If so, how long, on average, did it take?  I find that I hardly ever get hungry during the day.  It’s a very rare moment when my body actually cries for food.  I’m just asking because I wonder if I’ll ever get them back, or if they do eventually come back, but only with normal eating patterns. 

Sorry for the quick post but I’ve gotta head to work pretty soon!  I’m off at 12:30 today but I’ll be back this afternoon.